the facade behind moussie.

the facade behind moussie.

the gods ive prayed.
the topics ive spotted.
wad ive achieved is a mere disaster.
i aint wanna talk about my results or anythg else.
the sonner i have to face up to reality, the better for me.
empty promises exit my mouth
unwanted tauntings enter my ears
all i wanna do now is to focus.
without my comp and the tv.
wad i lack now is motivation
and the passion/drive/urge to succeed.
the sonner im awaken
the better its gonna be.
but there isnt much time left
for the end is coming near.
i hope my dad will destroy the computer.
a 512 unlimited broadband connection.
i aint using it for blackboard or research.
10 hours online everyday.
for 8 hours of d-o-t-a,
plus 2 hours of minesweeping.
Saturdays and sundays
are for revision and chilling.
but all i ever do is dota the two days.
i know mugging isnt my cup of tea.
and uninstalling FT is just a formality.
but owning noobs is my specialty.
only maths is a B,
my best is yet to be.
u may wonder wad the fuck im actually doing
but its the best i tink ive put in.
lying and bragging is wad i do.
but i know in the end im just a fool.
yea 2 days before the prelims.
im still nt in the least worried.
cos' i indeed got my lovely 8 points.
from a last minute work for my Os.
but last minute work in the A lvls.
A F.OFF is all im gonna see.
blame it on dota.
blame it on my laziness.
dun u tink its so fucking lame.
a shamen on bnet.
a student in vj.
i just aint fit to be my parents' son.
50 dollars a week.
20 dollars to lan.
how am i gonna be rich before im 20.
sigh. shrugs. and a middle finger.
a jerk, bastard, and an asshole.
sue me pls.
so i can go to jail.
for all the nonsense ive rant so far.
counting down to the remaining days.
pls dun tell me wad to do.
although im 18,
i occassionally find myself acting like a kid.
gawd, just let me rest in peace this once.