just a kid.

ive a feeling it's u. stop convincing me. u'd nvr succeed. its a numbers game. odd numbers just isnt appropiate. so step aside. in any case, u're just disappointing me. well i guess everybody's going crazy. but noone cares. anw wtf is wrong with u. acting like a pathetic baby. stop all that shit. its a new day. and its time to rest. let the play-acting begin.

"Sugarcult - Pretty Girl (The Way)"

Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love

She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head

Pretty girl, pretty girl
Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out
You can never get 'em out of your head

It's the way
That he makes you cry
It's the way
That he in your mind
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Love

SDB 6873A

haha. just had my dinner at ecp. at one of the seafood restaurants along tt stretch of beach. didnt realise nathan was also there along with his mates. i mean his family and relatives. mostly eurasianic. saw him eating crabs. haha. cant believe he's alr in his 80s. he looks much younger. but he's damn short. opps. anw my family left ard the same time as him. he was flanked by bodyguards dressed in batik all the time. he was then driven off in his lexus with his grandson on his lap. haha. thr was a police car escorting. indeed the president of sg. of cuz being an ordinate i went home in a cab.
A Merry Xmas' to one and all =)

nvr coming home.

blogging is boring. yet its a place to rant, sort out yr thoughts.
indeed many things has happened after my grandpa's death.
i chilled out for 3 days at the kelong in bintan with 7 of my dota homies. imagine. mahjong every afternoon. hide&seek at night. crabs for lunch and dinner. seafood feasts. fishing out in rough seas. seasickness on rocky boats. slping w/o aircon. feeding leftovers to fishes. all for 150.

then there was 21dec. haha. a long awaited day for me. i was brought to dis beautiful planet when some of my friends were alr learning hw to walk and talk. jeez. anw it was just lunch, pool, lan, dinner, lan, then mahjong. haha. then thr was supposed to be a class picnic at marina bay in the morn but the rain hampered our plans. in the end we ended up at settlers cafe near clarke quay. finally a place where the girls and guys can hang out tog. its cheaper than lan and shopping. plus thr's freeflow of drinks. ohh. its a board game lifestyle cafe. yupp. was quite a bang. then me yj and bock went to watch jy and eug carol at ritz. hmm. we made up ard 20% of the crowd.

less than 20 days before im enlisted to ns.
and ive got many thgs nt done.
disarm me.

his sins. =(

he passed away early this morning.
the last time i saw him alive was the second day he got admitted into hosp. how i wished i didnt lan on wednesday. i feel so fucking bad now. nw all i had is a doppelganger i hoped i retained. well i guess nthg i say can bring him back.
he's one great grandfather. my last ever.

fragileness of life.

its my grandpa. just got news that he has cancer and is in a critical condition.
went to visit him at the hopsital a few days back. he looked strong with eyes full of vigour and hope. but now its time. it was ard 70 yrs ago where he left his hometown in china to seek a better life here in singapore. he married young and had 11 kids. till nw, he has over 20 grandchildren. i pity him. all his kids are now fighting over his properties and money. luckily my dad isnt part of this domestic dispute. nt that he aint money-minded. its just that wads more impt now is to prolong my grandpa's life. i wished he cld live to see my kids. okie mayb see me get married. but the probability has just went up to a near impossible.
im sad. but i havent started weeping.

late nights mahjongs

zz. its sucks to fall sick int the midst of the hols. my throat hurts. its so painful even when im swallowing fluids. its like having smthg stuck in the middle of yr oesophagus. im also down with a bad cough. i cant cough. its just the uncanny feeling of coughing out blood. must be the late night mahjongs and the lack of water. been out over at my friends' hse for almost 3 nights now till about 5 am, only slping ard dawn. and waking up at 4pm. skipping breakfast and lunch altogether. my appetite has also been going down. cant really eat much these days. i feel extremely bloated just after a packet of noodles or half a bowl of rice. ahh time to stay at home and indulge in computer games and bks. give me 2 days. then i'll party again. ;D

my firsts.

thanks to nic, i managed to get into indochine after prom. it was exactly the kind of atmosphere tt ive anticipated. deafening music. crazy drunk chics. ppl spewing vulgarities at the top of their voices. its dark and everyone's stepping on each other's toes. guys takin adv of girls. ppl smoking everywhere. oh the toilet was funky. just two rows of drain for u to pee in. and to wash yr hands, u need to step on this black button on the floor. i guess its only fun if u danced with a girl. wad an experience.

prom was kinda cool but boring. the food sucks and the program was nt entertaining. i guess i have lots to learn. lots. anw im quite confused now.
and dota is getting pretty disgusting. and im serious.