winter chill.

and so it ends. 24 nov.
the day every 12 yr old dreads the most.
and incidentally the day every 18 yr old is looking forward to.
streaming, PSLE, O lvls, As. no more of those nasty examinations.
my mum told me that studyin is actually the most fun and easiest part of our lives. wait till we enter the working world. of backstabs, lies and trust. ah who cares. i still have my national service to lk forward to this jan. in the meantime, i shall just enjoy the remaining days.

i just woke up, probably the latest. its like 2.49pm. i miss breakfast and those cartoons shown in the morning. hmm. wad a spread on my table. laksa, yutiao, curry puffs. nooone's at home. only the computer and my mice to accompany me. so little time. so much to do. mayb i shall start with settling prom stuff. then i shall go do some sports. then again thrs the bintan and aussie trip. and christmas. and dec 21.
i love the weather. no mosquitos and bees.
at least at 2am when im playing dota.

okie. time to enter bnet. and lets my fingers do the pawnage. =)

a jacket and a cup of hot coffee.

I got a story it's almost finished
All i need is someone to tell it too
Maybe, that's you.

Our time is borrowed and spent too freely
Every minute i have needs to be made up
But how?
I'm looking for a nice way to say "i'm out."
I want out.

I fall asleep with my friends around me
Only place i know, i feel safe
I'm gonna call this home
The open road is still miles away
Hey nothing serious
We still have our fun
Oh we had it once
Windows open and close
That's just how it goes

Don't it feel like sunshine afterall
The world we love forever, gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
I'm in love with the ordinary
I need a simple space
And rest my head
Everything gets clear
Well i'm a little ashamed for asking
But just a little helps
It gets me straight again
Helps me get over it (over it)
It might seem like a dream
But it's real to me

Don't it feel like sunshine afterall
The world we love forever, gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are
You should see the canals are freezing
You should see me high
You should just be here
Be with me here
It doesn't seem theres hope for me
I let you down
But i won't give in now
Not for any amount
Don't it feel like sunshine afterall
The world we love forever, gone
We're only just as happy
As everyone else seems to think we are

- the world u love.

friking hormones.

Germination:
Abscisic acid - growth inhibitor.
Gibberellin - growth promoter, triggers synthesis of amylase, maltase, lipase, protease.

Guys:
Gonadotrophin Releasing hormone (GnRH)
- Follicle stimulating hormone (FSH)
- Luteinising hormone (LH)

Acrosome.
-carbohydrates and protease.

Female Menstrual:
Gonadotrophin Releasing hormone (GnRH)
- Follicle stimulating hormone (FSH) -> oestrogen.
- Luteinising hormone (LH) -> progesterone.

Womb:
Human Chorionic gonadrotrophin (HCG)
- oestrogen.
- progesterone.

Seeds:
Plant Growth substances:
- Auxins.
- cytokinins.
- Gibbereilin.

Rippening:
-methionine -> S-adenosylmethionine -> aminocyclopropane carboxlic acid -> ethene.

Chemical inhibitors:
-Abscisic acid.
- coumarin.

Pregnancy:
Human chorionic gonadrotrophin (HCG)
-oestrogen.
-progesterone.

Birth:
- Oxytocin.
- Prolactin.
-Adrenocorticotrophic hormone(AcTH) -> corticosteriods -> prostaglandins.

Human Growth (pituitary gland):
Trophic hormones
- Adrenocorticotrophic hormone(AcTH)
- Follicle stimulating hormone (FSH)
- Luteinising hormone (LH)
- Thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) -> triiodothyronine(T3), thyroxine(T4).

Non-trophic hormones
- Somatotrophin -> somatomedins.
- Prolactin.

Thyroid Gland:
- Thyroglobulin.

Thyroxine secretion:
- Thyrotrophin releasing hormone (TRH) -> thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH) -> thyroxine.

isnt bio options optional?

with bloodshot eyes.

warcraft three is like a drug.
to be taken in the early afternoons and late nights.
the withdrawal symptoms would be similar to that of an addict.
hallucinations. weird fantasies.
plus the strong temptation of hearing godlike.
the only way out is to immerse yrself in tyss.
or to gorge in chocolates. like i found dat out today.
but a pity as it only lasts for 2 hrs.
gg.

back to b0h.

heard dat my absence from the econs essay yest caused a bit of commotion. haha. they had to leave an empty seat for me. cuz i paid for tt friking paper. damn sian. oh i got back my cd yest from yunqi. haha and i installed it the first thing i reached home. its been 19 days since i touched dota? feels good to own and pwn noobs again. anw, i really got too much time to rot at home. completed all the past yrs mcq for chem alr. and thr's like two more days. it feels like exams had ended for me. and julian too. haha. oh. they all say that the econs essay was rather easy dis year. damn. one essay tt came out for prelims came out for the As. exact same qn. the one i scored the highest- 15. lol. my dad keeps emphasing tt i shldnt have dropped econs. he told me to go take the paper. doesnt matter if i fail. but it wldnt look too good on the results slip. 3As and a F.

from 3 failures to 3As. would it be a miracle if it really happen? luckily it'd be another 5 months before our results would be released. now i knew how my friends who did badly for prelims in sec 4 felt. luckily for me national service first. our prelims results doesnt account for anythg else. if nt i guess i'd be cleaning the streets of s'pore nxt yr. hm so far i can say the exams has been rather smooth sailing for me though the qns are trickier and tedious. esp. chem p3 and maths p2. was fucking challenging.

i did all i cld and gave it my best. now i can only hope for the best.

econs. heh.

the econs paper is starting in 30 mins
and im in the midst of updating battlenet.
lol. best of luck peeps. =D

untitled.

its weird why i thought i had like so much time to study chem structured. in the end i didnt really do much. only a couple of past-yr struc qns. double jeopardy, frequency, w/o a trace, oc, apprentice. been indulging in these movies on tv. gawd. and its like D-day tmr. time really flies. mayb with econs, i'd spent more time on bks. but with a little more anxiety and stress. shall nt brood over it anymore.

imagine candles and torchlights. no tv no comp no aircon.
yup. had a blackout. was settling down for tv in my living room when suddenly smthg exploded. the lights went out soon after. it was the circuit breaker. it tripped. my dad found out dat the wires melted, causing a great deal of current passing thru the breaker, hence causin' the trip. 45 mins ltr everythg went on except the aircon and the computer. cuz they were the ones consuming the most electricity. my dad wasnt gonna risk anythg.
so i fell asleep under the nite sky with the company of crickets and the cool nite breeze.

blind chance?

it was durin pri 4 i rmb when i tried playing risk. i was a newbie and wasnt sure wad to do when it was my turn to divide my troops evenly across the map. so i placed all my troops on the last continent at the edge of the board. i tink it was africa. thr was only one exit/entrance so defending was rather easy. 45 mins into the game and i crushed all my opponents. taking over their territories. haha. all my friends didnt believe it was my first attempt at the game. was it a stroke of genius or just purely beginner's luck? anw how do u define the latter?

well i guess beginner's luck isnt really luck. ppl define it as the course of bringing a fresh perspective to a skill/situation, and taking the risk that you will fail. In doing so, doin' better than you ever thought you'd. haha. since its yr first attempt, therefore u have no fear. ure not scared abt breaking the rules cuz u are nt even clear abt them. u aint understand the consequences, the limitations of wad ure abt to do. so most of the time, you will do well the first time you try something.

my friends wasnt happy abt their defeat and wanted a rematch. haha. so, i decided to adopt a new strat totally. i rearranged my troops all over the map. and tried to take over the largest continent first - Asia. of cuz i had nt enuff trops to defend my territory. and i was the first out. well. beginners luck doesn't need to just happen on its own. i mean you can induce it by firstly mentally placing yourself in the beginner's mindset. Purge your mind of what you know you're about to do before you do it. thus taking a risk that you might not be willing to take before because you knew you'd fail. You might succeed, not knowing that you could fail. heh.

So next time, tink like a noob. just dun act like like one.

second thoughts.

chem P2:
- Periodic T, transition M (colour)
- Gases, Chemical equili. (tog)
- ionic equili.
- BONDING**
- 2 on organic w/o polymerisation.
6qns.

for bio options:
im banging on sexual repro in mammals.
for dat 1 essay qn.

mcqs are giveaways.
just practice.
tons of repeated Qns.

econs:
hmms.

in collaboration with ucles.

gosh. it feels like the end of the exams alr. 4 more papers in 2 weeks. got roughly 3 days to study each paper. wtf sia. maybe i shldnt have dropped econs. anw the last 4 days were rough. the cambridge examiners were out to kill dis year. qns were friking tricky. esp maths. stupid plank qn. thought i had 3 As in my pocket. but now i can only hope for the best. hm. was on the way in the bus and thr were like tpjcians and mjcians. they were complaining abt the papers and left like 50 marks blank. so i guess ive got hope afterall. lol. hope they'd moderate the A grade upwards.

my hair is getting damn long. but im lazy to cut it. so i decided to hold it up using a hairband. haha. took from my sis. but i guess my head's a little big. almost broke one of those when i tried it on. resorted to using a bandana instead.
btw i was on the verge of going to zion on fri but i restrained. ;)
okay advert's over. back to frequency.

Ace for the As.

education serves to divide. cliche as it sounds. whether the present education system in s'pore is useful or efficient in spotting the various talents of the youths of tmr, many ppl have differing views. but indeed, a long way has come from a traditional-based classroom approach to a more laxed, independent, informal learning. But much have yet to be done.

if nt for the over-emphasis on exams, i doubt many would even bother reading their notes during their free-time. in the two years of college many have spent, only much effort is required in the few remaining months to the A-levels. well, it represents the last hurdle to cross before embarking on a newer phase of our life. it doesnt matter how well u did for the promotional exams in yr 1 or dat u fail 3 subjects during the prelims. ultimately u just needa present yr best and excel for the As. getting that 3/4 As is certainly no mean feat but its easily attainable. of cuz consistency in yr work helps. yupp. so much for that one piece of laminated cert which can be 'purchased'. if u know whr to buy. heh. useless if u stop now and try to strike it rich with dat cert. but one thing is certain that u are one step closer to that noble aspiration- astronaut.

who has ever looked forward to examinations? other than senseless muggertoads who had spent and will continue spending their entire lives on trying to cramp and memorise every single piece of information that is found in the textbks. as follows, we label them as nerds. u might argue tt they are hardworking and just trying to prove to ppl dat they are afterall smart. but all this at the cost of socialism and friends? its true that exams are all about factual regurgitation. Einstein once remarked, "Success is one percent inspiration and ninety-nine percent perspiration." rarely does it test and emphasize on the application of higher order thinking. today's Maths P2 might prove otherwise. but still its all about the student ability to be able to have adequate knowledge of the topics. Bright students benefit from this, gaining superiority over those who have a lower IQ or wad we term as slow learners. no matter how much they study, they would still be a level lower than the elite ones. u might have read recently that a few 12 year olds had already started their university education, skipping the Os and the As. unfair it may seem. u can blame it all on the genes. the present education system really supresses divergent thinking and creativity. the answer schemes are way too rigid. markers look out for specific keywords. the supposedly correct answers if written in your own words w/o the keywords, not conforming to the marking scheme wld be marked down. yep. no marks for trying to act smart.

u may have understood the concept of homeostasis in the kidney. but do u know that Jacob founded the loop of henle or that the loop of henle was founded before the Bowman's capsule. these might seem unimportant but it helps in sparking an interest in the very factual and boring topics. exams too lead to over-emphasis on results instead of the 'total outcome' which we shld emphasize on. No use mugging very hard for the upcoming tests and have them all forgotten once the tests are over.

i dropped econs nt because i hated that subject but its due to my inability to manage time well. well i wldnt forget all the stuff ive learnt so far. Econs have made me more aware of the workings of the stockmkt and hw rising oil prices can spark off a war or unemployment. now i take an extra 15 mins to go through the economics and business section of the newspaper which i usually skip. im more involved in current affairs than before. i'd definitely pursue econs again when i go to uni.

somehow, i feel the extreme urge to pen down my thoughts. mayb its the rain. hm. truthfully im nt feeling the stress. no im nt bldy confident or prepared. but i guess its just the ease of taking 3 subs. haha. btw its been raining almost daily. but it doesnt dampen my mood since i cant go out anw. hopefully it'd be bright and sunny again in abt 2 weeks. -_-
Ace the As guys and i'll see u at the end.

something to say? =) <---im a copycat.

dats wad I go 2 sch for .

Her voice is echoed in my mind,
I count the days 'til she is mine.
Can't tell my friends cos they will laugh,
I love a member of the staff. I fight my way to front of class,
To get the best view of her ass.
I drop a pencil on the floor,
She bends down and shows me more....

That's what I go to school for,
Even though it is a real bore,
You can call me crazy,
I know that she craves me.
That's what I go to school for,
Even though it is a real bore,
Girlfriends I've had plenty,
But none like Miss MacKenzie.
That's what I go to school for,
That's what I go to school for.

So she maybe thirty three,
But that doesn't bother me.
Her boyfriends working out of town,
I find a reason to go round.
I climb a tree outside her home,
To make sure that she's alone.
I see her in her underwear,
I can't help but stop and stare....

Everyone that you teach all day
Knows your looking at me in a different way
I guess that's why my marks are getting so high
I could see the tell tale signs telling me that i
Was on your mind
I could tell you wanted more when you told me that
I'm what you go to school for,
I'm what you go to school for.
She's packed her bags it's in the trunk,
Look's like she's picked herself a hunk.
We drive pass school to say goodbye
My friends can't believe their eyes....

That's what I go to school for
Even though it is a real bore
You can call me crazy
I know that she craves me
That's what I go to school for
Even though it is a real bore
Girlfriends I've had plenty
But none like Miss MacKenzie
That's what I go to school for
That's what I go to school for. ;D

a place with everything but first base.

The ‘friend zone’ is like the penalty box of dating, only you can never get out. Once a girl decides you’re her ‘friend’, it’s game over. You’ve become a complete nonsexual entity in her eyes, like her brother, or a lamp.
haha. just friends ;)
in theatres Nov 23.

that dragon which slays love under the pretence of keeping it alive.

doesnt it irk u to know dat she've been going out with someone.
you start to create scenarios in your mind of what she's thinking or doing.
it is the perfect way to torture yourself.
yes however horrible it feels, it can be almost compulsive.
how u dearly wish to get rid of these evil thoughts
and to return to being the real you.
somehow feeling that she's beginning to ignore you.
finding u irritating and wanting to keep u away from her.
indeed you've just found yrself falling into a constant state of jealousy.
dat doesnt sound good esp if the exams are in a couple of days.
bless you.

my favourite palindrome.

i didnt show my dad my results slip fearing he'd kill me. and mayb the possibility of removing all the privileges tt he gave me. i just merely told him i failed several subjects and dat i'd work hard from then. he came to know of my triple o tis mornin'. from my ct of cuz. she called the soh's residence early this mornin'. i can see the disappointed look on his face. but yet he didnt give me a lashing i deserved. he gave me hope. with less than a week left to the end, he said i cld do it, that im a smart boy, tt i was just lackadasical and lazy in the past. online games dominated my life. nw tt these distractions are temporarily gone, its time to work. he promised me dat aft the exams, i was free to do anythg i wanted to do. but i should put in my 110% durin dis crucial period. dis is my last chance of redeemin myself. i would be pretty fucked up if i screwed up at the final leg. aft 12 yrs of govt schoolin'. who wouldnt.
come to think of that. my dad gave me everythg i wanted. he promised me 3k if i secured 6 As in my Os. well. on top of the cash, he bought me a digital cam. haha actually i requested for it. i nvr had trouble with my allowance. it was always more than enuff. when im short of money, i'd just stick my hand out like a kid and ask for more. he wouldnt reject if i could account for how i'd spent them. staying over at my friends hse was smthg tt my mum wouldnt allow me. but my dad gave me dis freedom. he just told me not to create or get into any form of trouble. that's all. i really appreciated wad my dad has done for me. and i hoped i wun let him down again.
oh. the gaghan family just got eliminated. =( i was rooting for their team. ahh. but nvrtheless im still impressed by the little kids. & they got a wonderful dad. he taught them nvr to gave up hope and to persevere right up to the end. always aim to be a winner if nt nvr turn into a sore loser.
dads. they really are something eh.